two thousand seven

"i'll be tossin', enforcin', my style is awesome. i'll be causing more family feuds than richard dawson."--wu-tang clan
i think my style is awesome (no, not fashion, i admittedly suck at that). and i am a master of family feuds, so i suggest that wu-tang wrote this song about me.
it's 2007. the year of stuart. i am not one for resolutions, but i will let all of you know what my hopes are for the upcoming year. i don't resolve because it's usually dumb and i always fail, so what's the point. the past couple of years my resolutions have been things such as, "use less public transportation", and "recycle less". both of which i have broken since moving to seattle. i can't even seem to get the fake resolutions right.
this year is different, i don't have any effective moral or behavioral change to enact (although many of you would like me to stop many things i resolve not to), i have decided that this year will be the year of stuart. i don't remember the last time that i really took time out for myself and allowed myself to search for, and discover all sorts of new things. i will be nice to myself. i will try not to fear my circumstances and be unashamed of what i have to offer to others and myself. i will find the voice that i have misplaced, and it will be kind and strong. it will surprise me, and i imagine that it will surprise you as well. i don't want to feel as though i have to be funny or witty in order to be socially cool, but instead i want to know that i can be okay even if i am having a shitty day.
this may sound selfish to some of you, but it's not. i have not treated myself to this sort of thing for as long as i can remember. in fact, it's probably the kindest thing that i can do to myself. stop beating myself up, stop being afraid, stop. start living into the man i am meant to be, both good and bad, and rolling with it, start loving myself, start. 2007.