tongue

there is a permanent place in my mouth for my foot, and extra room for the other one as well. in hopes of being funny i sometimes say things that end up being hurtful. i wish i could understand why i do this from time to time, and i wish that i could stop. humor is not worth hurting someone that you really care about.
it's hard for me to understand that something that seems harmless and funny could be damaging to another. i have gotten better at holding my comments in order to reflect on the possible outcomes that could occur, but there are times when i still speak without thinking. ugh. i'm an idiot.
i hope that in the future i can be more aware of what is and what is not appropriate, and save my biting, sarcastic, commentary for the times when it is (if ever). perhaps it is never appropriate, but sarcasm is the way that i have dealt with everything for so long, and it's hard to change such an unfortunate habit.
i wish that i didn't feel the need to be funny all of the time. i wish that my words would be healing and not destructive. i wish that i cared about people more than i care about getting a laugh.
i'm sorry.
thanks to everyone that responded to my 'question' post.